I am in one of those weird spots in which I know God is doing something…. I can feel it in my bones…(Yes, I’ve gotten old enough to feel things in my bones!) There are definitely some things stirring. Can’t put my finger on it, but I’m paying attention, Lord. And praying….
It’s not like mid summer 2020 when I put before the Lord in prayer my urgency about the furious pace of the COVID-19 pandemic sweeping through our world and how it was bringing some people to absolute brokenness, others to absolute insanity, and others death. I cried out for relief …. “Isn’t there a point at which some relief will come? A new treatment? Something that will roll this back? There has to be relief from this coming! Are we close, Lord??” In that season I was being affected by the fear of many others. I wasn’t so concerned for myself, as I believed I could survive it, but if I didn’t, I knew where I’d be. I was concerned for so many who seemed so afraid of COVID….crazy fear, what seemed to me like an irrational degree of fear, angry fear. Fear and its consequences seemed even worse than the disease. When I put that question before the Lord that day His prompt and unequivocal response was, ” Not. Even. Close.” My heart sank in that moment and I knew we were in for a long season. Mere weeks later Bill had died from complications of treatment for COVID….
This is different. Hopeful. Not anxious. Like a small child waiting for Christmas…. knowing it is coming… not sure when… but it will definitely be good! I’ve learned not to ask God when…. I’ve learned to simply watch and wait…. to keep alert, sober and prepared. Keep the shoes on. Keep food that will travel close at hand. Close doors to the world’s chaos and cover my pathway out with the blood of the lamb.
I don’t know what God is doing, when, how, where, or among whom….. I know only that God is present in it and because God is good, it will be good. And because God is sovereign, He will not fail. And because God loves me, I will be included at some point in seeing what He is preparing, maybe before,
I am in one of those weird spots in which I know God is doing something…. I can feel it in my bones…(Yes, I’ve gotten old enough to feel things in my bones!) There are definitely some things stirring. Can’t put my finger on it, but I’m paying attention, Lord. And praying….
It’s not like mid summer 2020 when I put before the Lord in prayer my urgency about the furious pace of the COVID-19 pandemic sweeping through our world and how it was bringing some people to absolute brokenness, others to absolute insanity, and others death. I cried out for relief …. “Isn’t there a point at which some relief will come? A new treatment? Something that will roll this back? There has to be relief from this coming! Are we close, Lord??” In that season I was being affected by the fear of many others. I wasn’t so concerned for myself, as I believed I could survive it, but if I didn’t, I knew where I’d be. I was concerned for so many who seemed so afraid of COVID….crazy fear, what seemed to me like an irrational degree of fear, angry fear. Fear and its consequences seemed even worse than the disease. When I put that question before the Lord that day His prompt and unequivocal response was, ” Not. Even. Close.” My heart sank in that moment and I knew we were in for a long season. Mere weeks later Bill had died from complications of treatment for COVID….
This is different. Hopeful. Not anxious. Like a small child waiting for Christmas…. knowing it is coming… not sure when… but it will definitely be good! I’ve learned not to ask God when…. I’ve learned to simply watch and wait…. to keep alert, sober and prepared. Keep the shoes on. Keep food that will travel close at hand. Close doors to the world’s chaos and cover my pathway out with the blood of the lamb.
I don’t know what God is doing, when, how, where, or among whom….. I know only that God is present in it and because God is good, it will be good. And because God is sovereign, He will not fail. And because God loves me, I will be included at some point in seeing what He is preparing, maybe before, maybe as it happens, or maybe only in retrospect….. But “GOD IS” the great “I AM.” And that is enough for me to know.
as it happens, or maybe only in retrospect….. But “GOD IS” the great “I AM.” And that is enough for me to know.
Psalm 27
The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom should I fear?
The Lord is the defense of my life;
Whom should I dread?
2 When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh,
My adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell.
3 If an army encamps against me,
My heart will not fear;
If war arises against me,
In spite of this I am confident.
4 One thing I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord
And to [c]meditate in His temple.
5 For on the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle;
He will hide me in the secret place of His tent;
He will lift me up on a rock.
6 And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me,
And I will offer sacrifices in His tent [e]with shouts of joy;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, Lord, when I cry with my voice,
And be gracious to me and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You,
“I shall seek Your face, Lord.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me,
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not abandon me nor forsake me,
God of my salvation!
10 For my father and my mother have forsaken me,
But the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Your way, Lord,
And lead me on a level path
Because of my enemies.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my enemies,
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And the violent witness.
13 I certainly believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the Lord.