5/13/2018……
“For the good that I would, I do not; but the evil that I would not, that I do.” ….The Apostle Paul hit it on the nail. The Human Condition. Our double mindedness. The paradox of our carnal nature. That which bedevils our otherwise bejesus desires. We cannot do it in and of our own willful selves. Only by surrendering to the refining work of the Holy Spirit can we be what God created us to be. One can evict mischievous minions again and again but a vacuum will not remain empty. Something will refill the soul. The mischief will return again and again until one is entirely surrendered to the filling of the Holy Spirit and begins to be transformed. And even as the process begins, it can take decades for the process to overwhelm some of those little mischievous minions…… I speak from personal experience. This past weekend was a very healing aha for me. I’m still working through it. Bill and I had a very good heart to heart conversation yesterday. These moments make a marriage in Christ something worth all the hard times to get to it. Bill agreed and said too many people give up too soon and miss THIS kind of joy.