On this cold Sunday morning, I was reluctant to leave the warmth of blanket and heating system. As I lay there, having listened to and viewed several morning readings, the Lord was speaking. I was reflecting on how I’ve been wowed by all God’s done in situations in my life, even during and especially in my relationship with Bill. We each had some hard to resist habits of communication and behavior early in our marriage, until we each fully embraced Christ and then we had several years of being “deconstructed” before being renewed in our marriage. It was painful for both of us. I have come to feel more responsible for most of it ( which was Bill’s opinion all along, I think.) I was remembering some of that when suddenly God dropped “IED” into my forebrain, like a floating word that just is overlaid on my mind. That has happened on several occasions. It always causes me to ask, “What does this mean?” Instantly the Spirit said, “as I teach you, there are explosive moments that forever change your life.” Like Damascus Rd experiences….It’s like I don’t get to pursue a PhD from some learning institution of man but I get instructed through an “IED” instead…. a sudden instant of illumination that blows a hole in my comfortable habits of thinking and being. And though I may lose a limb or two in the process and be dazed by the sudden impact, I become rehabilitated and equipped with titanium limbs that give me much more strength and durability…… strange thoughts this morning. But then, I’ve known for years I was in a different kind of spiritual battle than some are willing to engage. God had even told me on several occasions it would be difficult and has given me “opt outs”, saying, “If this is too hard you don’t have to do it.” I tell Him again and again, I’m all in, no matter what. Sometimes it feels like undercover work, spying on the Enemy and undermining his operations….
