This past week ended the spring term of graduate school. I have one remaining course in the final term and the comprehensive exam to take. I feel somewhat like the little train that could….. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can….finish, that is. Being this close to the end causes a lot of mixed emotions. I’ve learned a lot. Mostly, though, I’ve learned how much more I have to learn. I have begun interviewing for jobs. But the job I’d thought would be ideal and that I’ve wanted and worked for seems as out of reach as ever. I have the feeling of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and yet the discomforting feeling that, even in coming out of the tunnel and into the light, I still won’t know where I am or where I’m going.
And so I rest and wait. But only for a brief time. The exam is this Saturday and the final term begins the following Friday.